The Beginning

At the end of November, my Mom and I took a huge step, and we decided to begin working with a Personal Trainer at Good life Fitness. It was time to take our lives back, do something for ourselves, and to work towards our own personal happiness. So we jumped on board and got ourselves set up. We started team training with J. Things were going well. We were in less pain after our workouts, we were feeling stronger - I was actually lifting weights (and it wasn't from a baby!)Fast forward about 7 weeks, our trainer quits. Full out quits his job, leaving his clients stranded. This was a set back. The set back did not last long though. We were quickly set up with a new trainer. We met with our new trainer, D tonight. After one meeting with her, I am already feeling more confident about achieving the success I want. For tonight's session, we talked about our goals (more on those after), our nutrition and our current eating habits. We never did this with J. She is extremely understanding, and passionate. You can tell she only wants the best results for her clients, and will do what she needs to get you there. My current weight is sitting at 208 lbs, with a body fat percentage of 45. Unhealthy. Unhappy. Unimpressed. My biggest goal in all of this is to become happy with myself again. I have been through HELL and back the past 2 years. Yes, I have had a lot of stress in my life. I was in an unhealthy relationship, I have given birth to two beautiful babies, I left my childrens' father, I lost my best friend, I have struggled with Postpartum Depression and ANGER. Throw in the mix of being a single mother, trying to figure out how to raise two babies and other various stresses, it has been a hell of a ride. I have become fairly unhappy. Unhappy with the way I look, the way I feel (sluggish, most of the time), the way I deal with situations...the list could go on. I am here to take back my life. I want to be happy again. I want to feel good and look good. I want to be a great role model for my kids. Kids learn their habits at home. The habits they learn at home are what they will grow up with. I don't want my kids to grow up unhealthy. I don't want them to grow up with an unhappy mama. They are a part of the reason I am starting this journey. I am doing this for myself, and I am doing this for them. Tomorrow marks the first day of healthier, clean eating. It also marks the 1st official day of training with D. We are going to do our measurements, as well as take a picture to help track our progress. I am ready for this change. I am ready to be healthy, I am ready to be a positive role model for my kids, I am ready to look and feel good about myself. I am ready to be happy. Deep Breath, and GO. Kayla xx